I've always been told I was an "Old Soul" or  possibly an "Indigo Child" ever since I was little. If you're wondering what an Indigo Child is, it is usually described as a child being independent, strong willed, curious, and empathetic etc. Reading about it as I've gotten older has really helped me learn some stuff about my self. I've studied the Wikipedia page on the definition and I was like wow, this really sounds like me. 

The bad thing is having some of the characteristics that are mentioned have really caused some problems and plenty of confusion in my life. Like being curious and empathetic.... but mostly really caring about people. I really genuinely care about my friends and family. If you need me, I'm there for you no matter what. If you need someone to talk to or need to ask for someones advice... I'll listen to whatever you have to say and give you my HONEST opinion and tell you what I would personally do in your situation. I'm no pushover, but I'm not harsh or mean. I tell you how it is, in the nicest way possible and I truly believe that's what a person who has a problem or needs advice needs to hear.  And I just don't understand people. Some (and most people I've met or have had to go to school with) do and say horrible, cruel, almost ridiculous things to each other. The kind of thing you would say "You really don't think before you speak" kinda things.

Like for a possible, recent example. As I stated in OOTD post, I went to the movies with a few friends yesterday. I went with my friends..Lets just call her Britney, her sister Stephanie, and her sister's best friends Kaylee and Carly (Stephanie is 2 years younger than Amanda is).
I had never met Carly before but I had been around Kaylee a few times. At first I didn't have any issue with Kaylee until my mom said something about how she was rude to her at school. You see my mom is teacher. And when I was in 8th grade my mom use to substitute at my middle school. And apparently my mom had subbed for Kaylee's class when she was in 6th grade and Kaylee was a total twit to her. So after hearing this needless to say, I really didnt like her anymore.
But back to the point. Everyone thinks Amanda is gorgeous and perfect. I'm not a jealous person, don't get me wrong. I love telling my friends their pretty and giving them compliments.
So we see the new movie "The Room mate" (which was really good by the way) and we are sitting out in the Theatre's lobby waiting to leave. I am having a conversation with Stephanie, Carly and Kaylee..everything is going well until they all start talking about how beautiful and perfect Amanda is. So I just sit there, and listen and am kinda annoyed because I just dont like talking about that kinda stuff. I'm about to say something to the effect of how everyone is always talking about how perfect she is and I have already said the first syllable when I decide it wouldn't be a good idea to mention anything of that sort. Carly turns to look at me and gives me a slightly dirty look.. like she thought I was going to object to Amanda's perfect-ness. Then Kaylee says "Yeah, I'd hate to be her best friend because I would always feel so ugly".
Okay, seriously. WHAT THE HECK IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN. I would NEVER even think of saying something like that to someone! and what makes me mad the most is that I don't know what her agenda was. Was it to put me down? or did she not mean to sound rude? I have no idea.

After thinking about this intently, I've asked myself one question: Am I really the average teenager?
Because most of the time I feel like I live on mars.